Fozil Mamadaliev

Natija qiymati Doim o‘zimcha nimanidir kutib yashayman. Balki hammada shunaqadir. Bir paytlar yuqori ball olishni, universitetga kirishni, o‘zim pul topishni kutardim. Vaqt o‘tgan sari esa o‘lchovlarimiz o'zgardi, ko‘zlagan natijalarimiz esa ko‘proq vaqt talab qila boshladi. Shunda tushunyapman - katta natijalar vaqt talab qiladi. Birinchi million - vaqt talab qiladi. Foydali inson bo‘lish - vaqt talab qiladi. Jannat - vaqt talab qiladi. Balki natijaning qiymati unga qancha vaqt ketgani bilan o‘lchanar. Eng qiymatli natijalar - o‘zimiz eng uzoq kutgan natijalardir.

Muhtojmiz Uzoq vaqt ko'rishmagan yaqinlarimiz bilan uchrashishdan oldin biz o'zgarganimizni (ayniqsa shu vaqt mobaynida o'z ustimizda qattiq ishlagan bo'lsak) e'tirof etishlarini va "O'zgaribsan" deb maqtashlarini qisman bo'lsa ham kutamiz. Maqtaganlaridan keyin boshdan o'tkazgan qiyinchiliklarimiz, intizomimiz va qurbonliklarimiz behuda ketmaganiga ishonch hosil qilamiz. Biz bunday maqtovga muhtojmiz. Lekin ular jarayonni bilishmaydi. Zotan ularni bu qiziqtirmaydi - xuddi bizga ham ko'pincha boshqalarning faqat natijasi qiziq bo'lgani kabi. Endi, shu jarayonlar va kechinmalarni yozib yursak va ancha vaqtdan keyin o'qisak nima bo'ladi? Arzimagan qiyinchiliklarga siqilganimizni o'qib kulamiz. Har xil mavzudagi yozib qoldirilgan fikrlarimizni o'qib, o'sganimizni his qilamiz va bardavom bo'lish maylimiz oshadi. Kim edik-u, kim bo'lganimizni anglaymiz. Qisqasi - samimiyroq "maqtovlar eshitamiz". Maqtovdan ham ko'proq biz - yozuvga muhtojmiz.

Qancha emas, qanday muhim Oxirgi kunlarda ko'plab job interview'lar qilyapman. Talabgorlarning bilimlarini tekshirishdan tashqari, jarayonning o'zidan ham har xil xulosalar olyapman. Shu xulosalardan biri - sizda qancha tajriba borligi emas, qanday tajriba borligi muhim. Ko'plab "senior" yoki 7+ yillik tajribaga ega nomzodlarni ham rad etdik. Sababi oddiy - ularning shuncha tajribalari sifatsiz tajriba edi. Hayotda ham qancha yashash muhim emas. Qanday yashash muhim. "60 yillik hayot o'gitlari" kabi kontentlarning hammasi faqat o'zlari yashagan, balki sifatsiz o'tgan hayotlaridan kelib chiqib gapirishadi. Maslahat olmoqchi bo'lsak ham, hayotiga havas qiladigan insonlarimizdangina olishimiz kerak.

Noto'g'ri xulosa Hodisalardan olingan noto'g'ri xulosalarimiz ko'pincha shu ikki tushunchani farqlay olmaganimizdan kelib chiqadi deb o'ylayman: bog'liqlik va sabab. Bir hodisa boshqasi bilan yonma-yon sodir bo'ldi degani, biri ikkinchisiga sabab bo'ldi degani emas. Qaysidir tojik odam sizni "uxlatib" ketdi degani - millati tojik bo'lgan har qanday odam sizni "uxlatib" ketadi degani emas. (millatchi deb o'ylamang, o'zimning oilamda ham o'zbek-tojiklar bor) Mark Zuckerberg, Steve Jobs kabi daholar universitet bitirmagan degani - universitetda o'qimaslik muvaffaqiyat kaliti degani emas. Ko'plab kompaniyalar AI kirib kelganidan keyin ishchilarini bo'shatyapti degani - AI ishingizni aniq olib qo'yadi degani emas. Kengroq qaraylik, ko'p hodisalar orasida shunchaki bog'liqlik bo'lishi mumkin - sabab emas.

O’tmishdan xat kelibdi: Shu maktubni o’qiyotgan ekansan, san moliyaviy, fikriy, jismoniy va ruhiy erkinlikka chiqib bo’lgan bo’lishing kerak. Mas’uliyatli, ulg’aygan, o’zining mustaqil fikrlariga ega, o’z hissiyotini boshqara oladigan yetakchi o’laroq o’qiyotgan bo’lishing kerak. Bu maktub o’tmishdan, 2025-yil boshida yozilgan. Maqsadim shunchaki sanga dalda berish, kayfiyatingni ko’tarishdir. Bu maktubni o’qirkansan, o’zingni oldingi fikringni o’qiyapsan. Butunlay boshqa insonning fikrini. Qiynalayotgan bo’lishing tabiiy. Bu yoshda hammada bo’lgan. Hayotingdagi eng muhim qarorlarni qabul qilish zimmasi yelkangga ilk bor tushishi bilan qiyinchiliklar boshlanadi. Axir bir esla, hozirgi maktubning muallifi pul topmaydi, yelkasida juda ham ko’p mas’uliyat bo’lsa ham, hali ularni ich-ichidan his qilib ko’rmagan. Silliq bo’lsa ham, bu bolaning hayotida mas’uliyat, risklar yo’q. Zeriklarli va bir-xilliliklar bilan to’lgan. Lekin bu muallifning rejalari bu yilga umuman boshqacha. Haqiqiy mas’uliyatni endi his qilmoqchi u. Agar san o’zingni eplay oladigan darajada pul ishlayapkan bo’lsang, har kuni bomdoddan keyin uxlamayotgan bo’lsang, bir kuningni o’qish va yozishsiz o’tkazmayotgan bo’lsang, o’z tanangni sog’lomlashtirayotgan bo’lsang, dinga va jamiyatga xizmat qilish uchun kerak bo’lgan bilim va ko’nikmalarni o’zlashtirayotgan bo’lsang, hissiyotini boshqarolmaydigan ulg’aymagan bola emas, balki mas’ul, o’z hissiyotini boshqara oladigan erkakka o’zgargan bo’lsang, bilginki 2025-yildagi Fozil san bilan faxrlanadi. Bu darajaga chiqish uchun intizom, iroda va tirishqoqlikni ushlab turganing uchun sanga tashkkur! Xuddi shunga o’xshash maktubni 2027-yilgi Fozilga yozishni unutma.

10 LESSONS IN 2024 1. Never try to please others at the expense of yourself. 2. The effort is from you, the result is from Him. 3. You can’t satisfy both your ego and soul at the same time. 4. The war between you and your ego doesn’t end. You just have…

Yangi odat shakllantirishda qiynalamiz deymiz. Erta uyg'onish, uzoq muddat diqqat bilan ishlash, zalga chiqish va hokazo. O'zini majburlash kerak, kuchli iroda kerak, consistent bo'lish kerak - kabi tavsiyalar ham foyda bermaydi. Bunga sabab odatda bu ishlarni qilishimizdan to'sayotgan yomon odatlarimiz bo'ladi. Kech uxlash, ko'p shorts/reels ko'rish, vaqtni noto'g'ri taqsimlash, va hokazo. Shu blocker'larni aniqlab yo'qotganimizdan keyingina odatlarni shakllantirishimiz oson bo'ladi. Shu bosqichdan keyingina kuchli iroda foyda berishi mumkin. Mindset tarafdan ham shunday. Yangi mindset shakllantirish uchun avval bolaligimizda bizga uqtirilgan noto'g'ri mindset'larni "unlearn" qilishimiz kerak bo'ladi. Bu esa juda muhim va qiyin jarayon. Chunki bu mindset'lar allaqachon reflex'ga aylangan bo'ladi. Ba'zan qachon challenge qilishni bilish ham qiyin. Half of wisdom is learning what to unlearn.

They say people love women, children, and pets unconditionally. I disagree. Unconditional love doesn’t exist in this world. The rule of this world is simple: there’s always a reason behind every action. Take laughter, for example. You laugh because something triggers it - maybe a memory, a funny story, or an experience that connects to that moment. It’s never random. The same applies to love. You love women - why? Because they bring you care, happiness, and comfort. You love them when they smile at you, show you kindness, and make you feel valued. That’s conditional. You love children because of their innocence. Their joy makes you happy. You love them because they’re pure and innocent - again, conditional. The same goes for pets. You love them because they’re cute, loyal, or comforting in some way. So, does unconditional love exist? Yes - only from Allah. Only Allah loves you unconditionally. He is the Creator of everything - of love itself, of conditions, of reasons, of time, of matter, of existence. He is the Loving. And He needs nothing in return, because He owns everything. #random

Startup company'larda eng qiyin ishlardan bittasi - bu userlarni jalb qilish. Undan ham muhimrog‘i - userlarni o‘z productini active ishlatadigan qilish. Buni qilish qiyin, sababi yangi productni ishlatishni odat qilish uchun user comfort zonasidan chiqishi kerak. U yangi narsalarni sinab ko‘rishi kerak. Bu yangi product uning ishini oson qiladimi yoki yo‘qmi - bu ular uchun ikkinchi masala. Biz build qilayotgan Numeo logistika sohasida butunlay yangi transition app desa ham bo‘ladi. Masalan hozir updaterlar ELD/Telematics orqali bir xil, monoton ishlarni qilishayotgan bo‘lsa, komandam build qilayotgan updater assistant orqali endi 1-2 ta click bilan xohlagancha brokerlarga update berishlari mumkin. Lekin bu userlarni yangi odat shakllantirishga majbur qiladi - ya’ni comfort zonasidan chiqishga undaydi. Shuning uchun bu transition qiyin bo‘ladi. Vaqt oladi. Product’ni yanada smooth va easy qilish, user experience’ni yaxshilash uchun ham vaqt ketadi. Bu transition’ni tezlashtirishning yagona yo‘li - tez va qattiq ishlash. Har kuni. Consistently. And that’s exactly what we’re doing right now at Numeo. #observation

There are some practices at Numeo that I've fallen in love with 1. Postmortem and 5 Why's Whenever an incident happens, instead of blaming a certain person, we ask 5 why's to identify the root cause of the issue and solve that so that it won't happen again in the future. Example: “Why did this happen?” – Because X went wrong. “Why did X go wrong?” – Because... 2. Boy scout rule If you see somewhere became too messy and it is also in your way, don't bother to clean them along the way. Leave the place better than it was when you first came. The core idea here is to never get obsessed with blaming someone even if it is 100% obvious it was their fault. Instead, just think rationally, apply reasoning, solve the root problem together and move on.

With power comes responsibility We often think life is easy if you're wealthy. That's true if we see from the outside. But each wealthy person is responsible for their employees, their decisions and actions. They may seem chill guys, but believe me, they're always anxious. They just don't show that to others because they already got used to being anxious all the time. And they're anxious not from the fear of losing that wealth but because they truly have a sense of ownership. They have to think and decide not as one person but as all the people in their team. The more people/resources they have to manage, the more responsible they have to become. And this is not about only wealthy people. It is about everyone whose life you think is easy. #random

Spent most of my time reviewing resume and interviewing applicants in the past 5 days, and here are my short takeaways: 1. Make sure your resume is neat We get hundreds of applications and you think we care about irrelevant details in your resume like your photo, full address, what languages you know? We don't. Just make sure your resume is neat and it shows your experience and skills in an understandable way. 2. Don’t try to sound smart Interviewers rather admire those who acknowledge what they don’t know 3. Try to be as engaging as possible Show us you have very strong motivation to join us. Do ask questions about company's culture to show you're really interested. 4. Think out loud While solving problems, speak while you think, communicate that so that we also know how you think.

Albatta, mening ummatimdan ba’zi bir qavmlar chiqadi, ular zinoni, ipakni (erkaklar uchun), ichkilikni va musiqani halol qilib oladilar. - Sahih al-Buxoriy Bu hadisga sharh berish niyatim yo’q. Shunchaki fikrimni bo’lishmoqchiman. Nima uchun biz doim zerikkanimizda sevib eshitadigan, “madaniyat timsoli” bo’lmish musiqa harom ishlar orasida zikr qilingani menga juda qiziq. Zino, ichkilik va musiqa. Bularni nima birlashtirib turadi? Hissiyotga berilish. Inson hissiyotga yoki shahvatga berilarkan u o’zini, Robbisini unutadi. Balki shuning uchundir shu ishlardan keyin inson “o’ziga kelib” qattiq afsuslanadi. Musiqada ham shunday. U sizning hissiyotingizga va kaytifaytingizga to’g’ridan to’g’ri ta’sirga ega. Xafasiz, kayfiyat ko’taruvchi musiqa eshiting, kayfiyatingiz ko’tariladi. O’zingizga bo’lgan ishonchingiz yo’q. Orqa fon bilan motivatsion gaplar eshiting, motivatsiya olasiz. Gapidan emas, orqa fondagi musiqadan. Bunga dalil, xuddi shu gaplarni musiqasiz eshiting, oldingidek (yoki hech qanday) motivatsiya olmaysiz. Ba’zan “islomiy” nashidlarda ham shunday. Nashid eshitishingiz bilan, iymoningiz “oshadi”. O’z hissiyotimiz bilan o’ynashyapmiz. Hissiyotimizni musiqa boshqaryapti. Vaholanki aslida siz boshqaruvchi bo’lishingiz kerak edi. O'rniga nima qilsak bo'ladi? Gurunglar, ilmiy ma’ruzalar, Qur’on eshiting. To’g’ri deyarli 80% qismini tushunmasdan o’tkazib yuborasiz, lekin kamida qandaydir foyda olasiz. Yoki kamida hissiyotingizni asraysiz. Musiqa eshitishni butkul to’xtating deyolmayman - buning iloji ham yo’q. Shunchaki o’z fikrlaringiz bilan bo’ling. Reflect qiling. Yozing. Fikrlashingiz ancha tiniqlashadi. Music is not real. What’s real are your thoughts.

Professional athletes count their exercise reps only when it starts to hurt. Because they know muscles can only grow when they get hurt. The same applies to life. Humans only grow when life hurts them. You can be happy and grateful in easy times of your life. But your behavior and reaction only counts when it gets hard. It only counts when it is hurting.

Speaking of Numeo again... We, the developers, have 1:1 session with our CTO every 2-3 weeks where we ask for suggestions, get feedbacks on our performance and step-by-step topics to learn etc. In today's session, I asked for his experience about how he got over burnout/stress that I am having in recent days. And he showed me about Jeff Bezos speech about stress: Stress doesn't come from hardwork or working too much. Because you can work really hard and still love your work. Stress comes from the fact that there are decisions you have to make and actions you have to take - and you're simply not making them. Love this mindset.

2-jahon urushi davrida c*ca c*la fashistlarni boykot qilgan. Bugun ular fashistlarni qo’llab-quvvatlayapti - boykot qilish endi bizga qoldi. Rastalarda ularning mahsulotlari biz bilgandan ko’ra ko’proq. Lipton, Pepsi, Fanta, Sprite, Nestle… Bu issiqda ularning ichimliklari chanqog’ingizni bosayotgandir - balki aynan eng qiyin bo’lib turgan paytda bu ishni qilishimiz eng afzalidir. Boykot qilib nimani o’zgartiraman? Tomoningizni. Ibrohim a.s. olovga otilganlarida og’zida suv tashib chumoli olovni o’chirmagandir, ammo shu ishi bilan Robbimiz oldida u qaysi tomonda ekanini belgiladi. Pulga sig’inayotganlar bor ekan, boykot ishlaydi.

Nima qilib bo’lsa ham Uzoq vaqtdan beri harakat qilib kelayotgan bir maqsadingga erishasan. Tabriklar eshitasan, nishonlaysan, quvonasan. Lekin 1-2 kun o’tib ichingda qandaydir bo’shliq paydo bo’ladi. “Men shuncha kutgan natija shu edimi?”, deb savol berasan o’zingga. Oldinga qaraysan. Hali erishilmagan maqsadlar ko’p. Lekin ularga erishsang ham seni o’sha bir xil hissiyot kutib turganini ko’rasan. Demak u maqsadlar oliy maqsad emas. Ular hayotning keyingi bosqichiga olib chiquvchi bekatlar xolos. Xo’sh, oliy maqsad nima unda? Oxiratda Allohning rizosiga elituvchi o’sha kichik maqsadlarga erishishda davom etish. Nima qilib bo’lsa ham.

Numeo'da engineer'lar ishlash tartibi Standup. 8.30 da ish 'Standup Meet' bilan boshlanadi. Bunda hamma (CEO lar ham) o'zini jamoasi uchun ochilgan Google Meet'ga kiradi va quyidagi mavzu bo'yicha gapiradi: 1 kun oldin nimalar qila oldi va bugungi rejalari qanaqa. Bu 15-30 daqiqa davom etadi. Har dushanba standup'dan keyin bizga hafta oxirida berilgan kitob bo'yicha qisqa xulosalarimizni gapirib o'tamiz. (Google SRE book o'qiymiz odatda) CI/CD. Standup'dan keyin odatda 1 kun oldingi o'zgarishlar kodlari ko'rib chiqiladi (Pull Request Reviews) va prod'ga deploy qilinadi. Task Management. Bu uchun biz 'Clickup' ishlatamiz - bugun / bu hafta uchun task'lar yaratamiz va status'larini update qilib boramiz. CTO mentorship. CTO'imiz Bekzod aka ham meet'da bo'ladilar va biz xohlagan paytimiz ulardan yordam so'rashimiz mumkin. Bekzod aka eng ko'p talab qiladigan narsalari bu - overcommunication (engineer sifatida eng tez o'sishni yagona yo'li). Qolaversa trial'dan o'tgan engineer'lar bilan CTO o'zaro 1:1 session bo'lib o'tadi (har 2-4 haftada bir). Bunda Bekzod aka bizga ishimiz bo'yicha feedback'lar va o'sishimiz uchun suggestion'lar beradilar. Pulse-Checking. Man 'Updater Assistant' jamoa lead sifatida vazifam har 1-2 soatda jamoadoshlarimdan pulse-checking qilib turishim kerak - asosan o'zimdan quyi lavozimdagilarga qiynalayotgan jabhalarida yordam berish va yuqori lavozimdagilardan talab qilib olish. Kun davomida hamma jamoa o'zini meet'ida online bo'lishi kerak va savollari bo'lsa bir-biridan so'rab tez o'rganib, tez deliver qilish kerak. Va kun oxirida hamma o'zini update larini berib sign-off bo'ladi. Bu holat dushanbadan jumagacha takrorlanadi. Shanba kuni ham ish - erkinroq. Yakshanba kuni aytganimdek kitob o'qiymiz. Xullas, hard work - but we learn a lot and grow fast.

Avval o'qish keyin ishlash, yokida ham o'qib ham ishlash? O'qishdan maqsad - tanlangan sohani chuqur o'rganish. Ko'pchilik o'qishni bitirgandan keyingina ishlashni boshlaydi. Lekin ham o'qib ham ishlash tanlovi ham bor. Qaysi biri ustunroq: universitetni 0 yillik tajriba bilan bitirish yoki 2-3 yillik bilan? To'g'ri, darslarga to'liq qatnasholmaysiz. Lekin real-life practice da siz ko'proq va foydaliroq skill'larni o'rganasiz. Numeo'ga ishga kirganimga ham 6 oy bo'libdi. Attendance yoki assignment topshirishni hisobga olmasak, univer'da deyarli hech qaysi darsga qatnasholmadim. Lekin shu 6 oy ichida o'rgangan narsalarimni univerda yaqin 1 yil ichida hali o'rganmasam kerak. Maqsad mutaxassis bo'lishmi? Why wait for 4 years? Why not now? Why can't carry both?

Atrofingga qaraysan. Muvaffaqiyatlilarga maza, ularga hayot osondek. Lekin, ular hayotdan nolimasligi ularga oson degani emas. Muvaffaqiyat yo'lida osonchilik yo'q. Sabr yoki ko'nikish bor xolos.