Soulful Thought

These words I write, they can't kill me, can't spill my blood. But, They can quench my soul sometimes, and sometimes they set my veins on fire. The words I write, sometimes kill me a little, and sometimes they kill me a little bit more. Just not by daggers. #random #SammyScribble

I desire to be an entity from which you cannot depart, akin to the warmth of a bed in the morning. It requires a significant effort to leave, yet by the end of the day, you invariably return. I aspire to be your comfort. However, I recognize that I am also someone you must avoid. I realize that I resemble a fire toward which you are drawn, yet I continue to inflict burns. I represent destruction, and I resent this reality. #lightthoughtss

​You thought you had finally found the floor of it, believing you had grown strong enough to hold its head under the surface of the water until the thrashing stopped, watching the ripples fade into a glass-like silence while you let yourself breathe and tasted the salt of a victory you thought was permanent. But the silence was a lie, for you cannot drown the water itself, and you realized with a chilling clarity that you were trying to execute the very source of your own electricity; you cannot sever the nerve that carries both the agony of your trauma and your capacity for joy without leaving yourself roofless in the rain. You weren’t killing a ghost; you were fighting your own shadow, forgetting that as long as there is light, the shadow remains, waiting like a patient tenant to strike on the day you feel the strongest—the day your guard is lowered by the weight of your own confidence. It doesn’t miss, because it knows the exact geography of your scars, and when the collapse happens, it isn't a trap you stepped into but a spontaneous combustion of every flashback and phantom ache you thought you’d outrun. You break down not because you are weak, but because you are full, yet you still undergo the exhausting ritual of gathering the grey ashes of the disaster to paint a smile so convincing it aches, choosing the exhaustion of pretending over the surgical intrusion of being asked if you are okay. Even now, knowing the truth—that the enemy is woven into your very DNA—you find yourself walking back to that same well with new strategies and sharper blades, failing with a desperate, beautiful insanity as you stand over the water with a hope that feels a lot like grief, thinking that maybe, just maybe, this time the reflection won’t look back. #lightthoughtss

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today i was envious of a goldfish somewhere i heard that goldfish have a memory that lasts three seconds i would spend the rest of my life in a fishbowl to forget the way it felt to hold you #home #lightthoughtss

I lost her, not like a misplaced key, but like a star that burns out, fading from the sky, leaving behind only darkness. I lost her in the cracks of time, in the seconds that slipped by when I wasn’t looking, when I thought we had forever but forever came too soon. I lost her, not with a bang, but with a whisper, a soft goodbye that I didn’t hear until she was gone.

i’ve always liked my own company but now when i’m alone your words are all that i hear so here i sit in public places hoping that the voices around me will be louder than the voices within #lightthoughtss #ligh@lightthoughtss

sometimes i feel like i’m on the outside watching my life unfold like it is a performance and i’m just the audience i’d like to consult with whoever wrote this disaster. #lightthoughtss

i love to read books they are safe if the plot becomes too messy i can simply close the book i wish i could trap my life in the pages of a book. #lightthoughtss

I want to take a knife and peel myself like an orange. i want to pick out all the parts that no one wants and throw them away. #lightthoughtss

Soulful Thought pinned «here's something to think about reality is basically depressing. but we need to be in a good state of mind to be productive or to lead a healthy life. if we agree on those two points the majority would go the path of denial and regression from a serious contemplation…»

here's something to think about reality is basically depressing. but we need to be in a good state of mind to be productive or to lead a healthy life. if we agree on those two points the majority would go the path of denial and regression from a serious contemplation or confrontation with the reality. they need to feed on false hopes and improbable assumptions. that's why the self development industry is thriving. that's why good novels are disappearing from the market while a motivational book sells in millions. could there be a different approach? can we really be realistic and at the same time be in a normal (healthy) condition socially and emotionally? can we be hopeful without denying? can we be happy without selling truth for cheap? how can we remain strong and hopeful without being in a state of denial?

Silence is my shield, my protector. When I speak, I am vulnerable, exposed, misunderstood, and judged. #random

We both know that want and need are too different words but somehow we keep getting them mixed up. i know this is not what i need but i want you anyway. #lightthoughtss #home

I choose to love you in silence 🕯 #lightthoughtss