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I am not afraid that you will love someone else, but I am afraid that you will believe that anyone loved you more than I did. I am afraid that you will think there is a heart in this world that gave you its entire beat as you did, that endured your mood swings as you did, that bore your silence as you did. If you turn to someone else, that is fate, and I accept it. But for you to forget that I placed you above myself and believed in you more than I believed in myself—that is the pain that breaks me, a pain that cannot be spoken.

أنتظر مبادرتك طويلًا وأتظاهر أن الأمر عادي، وهو ليس كذلك أبدًا قل لي، هل لك نيّة أن تأتي وتحدّثني؟ لأنني تعبت من الانتظار وربما، لن يكون هناك غد لأحبك بهذا القدر.

أحب اشتباك الأصابع ولمسة يدي بيدك إحساس غريب جدًا لا يُمكن وصفهُ أبدًا لا بكتابات،ولا بـ أغاني،ولا حتى بـ أشعار مسكة يدك شيءٌ مُختلف… شي يحسّسني إننّي بخير

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If the whole world were with me I would leave the whole world and come to u

Let us be together Despite the misery of the days and the hardship of the road Despite the circumstances that prevent me From walking with you as I wish Let us be together Because the world has enough cruelty And because you are the kindest I have ever wished for To remain for a long time Just be with me and by my side I want nothing else

I have two sides ⋅˚₊‧ 𐙚⋆˚꩜｡

And don't say that this long silence has triumphed over us for I have not stopped chattering to you in my mind

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You can't understand me even if you tried. You don't see what's inside me. You don't see the torn things inside me. You don't even see the blackness accumulating under my eyes.