r/traumacore

Am I broken/unfixable? /r/CPTSDFreeze/comments/1vi9lhb/am_i_brokenunfixable/ https://redd.it/1vi9ndx @r_traumacore

Help me Im so broken from you and why did you do this to me??? https://redd.it/1vf0vcm @r_traumacore

counting bodies like sheep to the rhythm of the war drums. https://redd.it/1vf5nn4 @r_traumacore

[ slight flashing | read description ] - I try to block out the memories, but they keep coming back, no matter how hard I try. https://redd.it/1v9myy9 @r_traumacore

I can't do it anymore. https://redd.it/1v6hnta @r_traumacore

Medical PTSD is real https://redd.it/1v6hwbt @r_traumacore

Help me I was written with Hateful Comments and was sent with Negative Feedback last year, warning: If you have Anthropophobia, please click off of these links https://youtube.com/shorts/wsaj-RDFzdg?si=5yB2RpRL69carCcy https://youtube.com/shorts/TD5f1oftriQ?si=M0kT9eDWY9Sr-Vft https://youtube.com/shorts/j0EETUzJkEU?si=eWkRGyboTRq40iLa https://youtu.be/LRsJq-tBZSc?si=5oHT_r0SxhqtuNXU https://redd.it/1v6x66m @r_traumacore

My cousin brother molested my childhood best friend /r/ptsd/comments/1v7jwej/my_cousin_brother_molested_my_childhood_best/ https://redd.it/1v7jxs4 @r_traumacore

Childhood Trauma & CPTSD Animated Comic w/ “Roman Candle” by Elliot Smith (*CW*) https://redd.it/1v7b7e1 @r_traumacore

Come play again https://redd.it/1v6sehs @r_traumacore

Pretty f’d up, eh? https://redd.it/1v6o876 @r_traumacore

I ruined everything I was in a relationship with a girl for more than 1 year while we were in relationship i tried to do everything right just for her and she did for me as well, but somehow as time went by idk why i became very toxic i was doing constant arguments with her and finally she broke up i was so dumbass that I didn't fix it. I basically fucked up everything.. after 1year of no contact I finally texted her and said sorry also if she wants to try it again but this time I'll be good what she said after that shattered my heart. She had lost feelings for me and cant continue a relationship with me or anyone else. She wants to be single and enjoy her uni life.. i feel so miserable I've been praying doing my works attending classes but nothing works. I hope y'all could give me some advice how to move on from the problems ive created Note: there was no third person between us and ik she'll like someone in the future https://redd.it/1v6hf8w @r_traumacore

Analyzed https://redd.it/1v4pjgo @r_traumacore

Give upd https://redd.it/1v4q3ib @r_traumacore

Teddy loves me https://youtu.be/8nbn6M8vUZY?is=w-ko89_Ocv0B29yh https://redd.it/1v369r3 @r_traumacore

Really needed to vent sorry /r/sadstories/comments/1v377rq/who_i_was_and_what_i_am/ https://redd.it/1v37cam @r_traumacore

I long for a simpler time. [ slight flash warning + derealization ] [ desc ] https://redd.it/1v2yov2 @r_traumacore

I need mental therapy (seriously) /r/Caldruki/comments/1v1i8jo/i_need_mental_therapy_seriously/ https://redd.it/1v1idim @r_traumacore

did i do something bad to suffer like this? Hi, can’t keep this outta my chest. I felt like I was punished. I haven’t done anything wrong. But my relatives had ruined my life, and then I am seeing them prosper. Applied to multiple schools before resigning, almost got a job offer and after resigning, I was rejected. Never came a day na di ako nagapply, had my demo in numerous schools but of no luck. Been unemployed for almost 3 months and my savings are all used up kakaapply. Then I had to deal with breaking up with my ldr bf for 5 yrs since he has no plans of closing the distance while I am starting to make plans and have timeframes. Oftentimes I question myself, why do people find their lives so easily. While I am juggling all the weights on this world cruelly? All of which are too heavy for me to carry. I need someone to talk to, I am drowning and my mind is not in it’s right state now since I think of ways how to end this pain. My chest keeps on tightening and it hurts so bad, how can I cope with all of these? https://redd.it/1uz7b7c @r_traumacore

I just need to get this off my chest Let me preface with this is not compliment fishing or am I trying to be a pick me, I just genuinely am lost. I hate myself. Not in a oh I don’t think I look good today way but I genuinely despise myself. I’m chubby, fat actually and it’s not changing. I have tried every method , healthy and unhealthy and I have done every diet under the sun but it makes no difference apparently . I’m still fat . In schl we had a week to wear own shorts and t shirt bc it was hot , and I couldn’t fucking participate. Despite the heatwave (uk) I was still in thick navy full length schl uniform bc of how fat I am. And it’s not even that I am not fat and just insecure, I am fat. I eat so clean , 2-3 salads a day, 70-80g of protein daily and I walk 10k steps a day. Due to my home circumstances I’m not allowed to go to the gym or for a run but I do home workouts where I can when I can. No fucking change. To the point I thought I was just destined to be fat. I am. I work so so so hard and the effort never shows through. I think that’s my problem actually. I do three alevels, hoping to study medicine. I worked my ass off EVERY DAY preparing for me mocks and it still wasn’t enough to get the highest grades . All my friends who do 1/8th of the work I do get much higher than me. Now , not in a cocky way, I am smart like I have very high GCSEs and high enough predicted alevels but not as smart as the amount of work I do should reflect . I put my soul blood sweat and tears into my epq, mocks, tests and still average on an A. Pls I’m not trying to sound ungrateful but I work enough for an A\\\\\\* I am so dedicated and my life is studying. Again, all the effort I put doesn’t show through. I evaluated all my revision techniques, made sure they are all active revision and actively helping me remember , spent my lunchtimes ( skip lunch anyway) studying and working with teachers to better my score , which they all dismiss me bc I should be grateful with an A grade. I know I should, and I am but I just can’t understand why my effort does not shine through. Exhibit 3: nobody likes me. My teachers avoid me, don’t take me seriously. Neither of my parents can talk to me without it being a shriek at the top of their lungs . Apparently I’m so disrespectful and a horrible child for not performing to their standard , but I am trying to hard at school. The last straw for me is ucat - I can’t can’t fathom how I have done 2 months of practice and the scores I get match those who did their first section today. Why does my effort never pay off. I’m trying so hard , and I don’t know how much longer I can. In summary I’m fat and can’t be skinny, stupid and an unlikeable idiot. If there is a god out there , I wish to ask - what is your plan with me and why is it so horrible. https://redd.it/1uysmi0 @r_traumacore