Abundant Simplicity Stories

4TH BIRTHDAY Unbelievable but we survived 4 years. 4 years of parenting the dragon-elf. On the 6/08 we marked the 4th birthday of that leo-tiger with a heart for adventures and unbreakable spirit, intimidating clarity of what she wants, unstoppable story-making and sense-making, and phenomenal memory for places, events and people.  She's been a good guide so far: despite us feeling exhausted day-to-day, the bigger picture is evolving in a stunning way thanks to her. We stayed in #Findhorn for her birth and first months, and in #Pourgues later: both gave us dearest friends. We traded a dream to live high in the mountains for a choice to be close to a village for her: and we got the community we need. And now again, the wish for her to experience the magical kindergarten supported our decision to relocate to Sweden for a year – a decision too tough to take if it was just about us.  What's most incredible, after 4 years of tiredness (and cuteness!) we still love each other and even more so.

TRANSITION There have been things marinating and cultivating, under that blanket of early motherhood and settling on the land. The blanket so comforting yet heavy, allowing little movement and concentrating all strength in one place, lletting me believe I don't have a force any more for the world out there. The blanket grounding my untamed self, letting me forget myself so I can find her anew. There were things cultivating – the feel of a stronger ground, the touch of the wild yarrow, the quieter but more powerful cry for the hurt in the world. There was me, waiting. Last autumn, was the first time I went away from my daughter, for a journey in the mountains in Bulgaria. With a tribe I had not known, with the wolves howling in the next valley and the bear poop keeping us alert. The training Through Ash and Blossom, what a fair name, the immersion in ones own pshyche, reflected back to us by the wild nature and by a circle of fellow travelers, for finding our service to the wider web of life. With Toni Storm and Ognian Life Breather as guides – thank you. With more-than-human allies as mirrors – thank you. With a temporary village of trusted ones – thank you. The 10 days stretched into a hundred-years journey remembered by chemical reactions in my cells, the life and death circles going on and on and on through that biological matter we are made of. I am the soil, the larvae, the forest. I am the prey and the predator. I am the passion for the life to thrive. I went to burry my warrior, I wrote, and instead I welcomed her back. For there are things to fight for. For there is supportive wild hand unconditionally holding mine, as long as I stay connected. Daring to dare. Daring – again – to follow the call I know inside, to be myself, to protect what I love, to support others. To stand strong, to fall without fear of failure, to try – more courageously, knowing I have now things to lean back to. The forest, rivers, mountains and nights under the starts reminded me to follow what's me. I feel as the heavy blanket, the dam holding me back last years, fell there, Through Ash and Blossom. It led to quite some decisions, oh it did, shaping our life now. It cracked open what was waiting, in longing, but in what I had not dared to step. It led me to search, instinctively, by smell and feel, the wilderness training – not the one to survive over nature but to build relations with all life. And I found it, it seems. Following this call, and all the synchronicity brought over the past year, me and Nayana little dragon will go to live in Sweden for a year, enrolling in year-long Naturliv courseS. Abu will be with us as much as his work allows, until we are back together to the Little Wild land, kindly stewarded by others meanwhile 🤍 Not least, this process over the last 9 months, made me trust that our home, our family, my most precious relations, are a harbour from where self continues to grow. To trust you, the man with the eyes of my daughter, that our togetherness is beyond place. To trust you and myself equally that we are to grow and support each other's growth, in service to the web of life 🙏. ▶️ 🎵 The Storm Within 🎵