HOME || ቤት 🏚

It's been a week since I turned 28. And now I officially, totally and complete believe that I am old. I just found myself saying "የነገ ሰው ይበለን!" 😭

One comment I get about this channel is to post constantly. Well, I wish. But I don't even exist constantly. 😒

Dear God, just know that I am taking this all very personal. 😏

🌼🏘 Exactly 5 years ago today, I decided to create a Telegram channel out of the blue. Starting from that day, I have been sharing random things every now and then: poems, emotions, breakdowns, successes, jokes (no matter how unfunny they are), essays, nonsensical rants, suicidal notes (without the suicide, of course 😁), and everything else. Today marks the 5th-year anniversary of our Home. We have come a long way, haven't we? I see myself growing and becoming a different (I even dare to say matured) person through this channel. It served as a great documentation of my life. I am truly thankful. Having more than 1,200 audiences as family members isn't something easy, it is something valuable. This channel might grow even more, and I root for that. It might get somewhere or not - I don't think that matters. But I promise to give what I have and to keep pouring my heart into it. And on an unrelated note, I am considering being active on another platform (I am just shy to say TikTok 😂 I think my ስግጥ ፍምስ phase is about to flourish 😂). If you have any comments (or even የፍቅር ጥያቄ 😂), you can contact me via my bot: @Home_izm_bot. እኩዮቼ የልጆቻቸውን ልደት ያከብራሉ፤ እኔ የቴሌግራም ቻናሌን አምስተኛ ዓመት ልደት አከብራለሁ። ግን ይሁን - ሁላችሁንም እንደ ልጆቼ ነው የማያችሁ! Stay alive, stay at Home! 😁🖤

"You have destroyed a life . . . your own." Fyodor Dostoyevsky

I really thank God about Aster! [Don't ask me which Aster. She might be Aster Aweke or Aster Abebe, or even I might be dating a girl named Aster.] 😁

ኢትዮጵያ - ኪነት ያገነናት ሀገር! 😏

I hate the fact that I don't wanna be like you. I hate the fact that you are not my role model. I hate the fact that I won't share my struggles with you. I hate the fact that I can't discuss anything with you. I hate the fact that I don't feel safe with you. I hate the fact that I can live my entire life without missing you for a single second. I hate the fact that my mind is full of those awful memories. I hate the fact that I'm so detached from you. I hate the fact that I'm lowkey ashamed of you. I hate the fact that there is no way to avoid you. I hate the fact that I feel bad for you. I hate the fact that I understand your struggles. I hate the fact that you didn't even try. I hate the fact that people disrespect you. I hate the fact that you were not able to fulfill my physical and psychological needs. I hate the fact that you are selfish and self-centered. I hate the fact that your expectations are unending. I hate the fact that you never played your role. I hate the fact that there is a void in my heart only you could have filled. I hate the fact that I had to write this all. I couldn't change this all, but I hate those facts! Anyways, Happy Father's Day! 💔

ያልነገርኩሽ እውነት — 1 — ፀዐዳው ቆዳዬን ፥ ዕድሜ እያቻኮለው ለጋው የልጅ ፊቴን ፥ እልፍ ብጕር ኳለው "ሳይከርም ይጠፋል ፥ ጥቂት ቀን ታገሰው" ብሎ ሲመክረኝ ሰው ምስኪን የልጅ ልቤን ፥ እንዳላሳመመ ጊዜ ከዳውና ፥ ይህ ብጕር ከሰመ ሆኖም ይሄ ብጕር ፥ ቀን ቆጥሮ ቢከስም ፊቴ ላይ ተስሏል ፥ ጠባሳው እንደ ስም "ልጅነት ላይ ከስሟል" ፥ "ጠፍቷል" ያሉት ብጕር ጠባሳውን ትቶ ፥ ፊቴን ቢያዥጎረጉር እስከ ዕለተ ሞቴ ፥ ግዛቱን አስፍቷል ታዲያ ይሄ ብጒር ፥ አለ ወይስ ጠፍቷል? — 2 — ሰው መውደቁ ላይቀር ፥ መንገድ ቢደለድል ብቻውን ምንድነው ፥ ገድል ያለ ዕድል? እግሬን አገኘሁ ሲል ፥ መንገዱን ስላጣው ይህ ጎልማሳ ልቤ ፥ ተኳርፏል ከዕጣው በማይነጋ ሌሊት ፥ በማይመሽ ቀን መሃል "ኩኒስ ኒደርባ" ሲል ፥ ያንቺ ድምጽ ይጮሃል ኑሮ ሸክሙን ሲያከብድ ፥ አስኪጎብጥ ወገቤ "ይሄም ያልፋል" አልሺኝ ፥ ቆመሽ አጠገቤ በእርግጥ ልክ ነበርሽ . . . ቢበርድ እንደ አመዳይ ፥ ወይ ቢያነድ እንደ ፍም ቀን አይልም "አልላልፍም" በመጣበት እግሩ ፥ እየተካለፈ ብርቱው ቀን አለፈ! ዛሬ. . . ያ ሁሉ ጭንቅ አልፎ ልቤም ጥቂት አርፎ ሕይወት ቢቀጥልም ፥ ባለው በተረፈው "ያልፋል" ያልሺው ቀን ግን                         ሰብሮኝ ነው ያለፈው!

In this era, dating is an unprofitable and even foolish investment. #Unemployment_Thoughts_1

... I start writing some poem. It makes me emotional, so I stop. And then I start writing another poem. It makes me emotional, so I stop. And then I start writing another poem... 🤯

"Talk nonsense, but talk your own nonsense, and I'll kiss you for it. To go wrong in one's way is better than to go right in someone else's." Fyodor Dostoyevsky Crime and Punishment

Life is ironic. Just when you get your channel back, you lose your will to exist. 😃

እርሱት ሕሙም ልቤን አትንኩት አትንኩት! ስሸሽ ነው `ምኖረው ስሸሽ ነው የኖርኩት!

Hallelujah! 😭🖤

I can't believe I get back my Home! I'm literally about to cry! 😭😭😭 🖤🖤🖤

Why am I obsessing About the things I can't control? Why am I seeking approval From people I don't even know? 🖤

At this point, nothing cringes me more than ለሃገር እንደተዘፈኑ ዘፈኖች እና እንደተገጠሙ ግጥሞች። አለ አይደል "እምዬ ሃገሬ ባንዲራሽን ሳየው እምባ በዐይኔ ግጥም ይላል፤ ንፍጤ ያመልጠኛል" kind of ሳክስ። እኔ ለሃገር ከተዘፈኑ ዘፈኖች ደስ የሚለኝ የጎሳዬ "ልቧን አልፎ" የሚለው ነው — በተለይ "የቱንም ያህል ልወድሽ ብጥር አልቻልኩም ይቅርታ አዝናለሁ" የሚለው ስንኝ! ደግሞ ስለ ሃገርህ ልታማርር ስትል "ሃገሬ ለእኔ ምን አደረገችልኝ ሳይሆን እኔ ለሃገሬ ምን አደረኩላት በል" በሚል Cliche ዝም ሊያስብሉህ ይሞክራሉ። ብሮ — በየወሩ ከደሞዜ ላይ 35% ግብር የምከፍለው ለክሮሺያ ነው እንዴ? Pathetic! እንደውም "እኔ ለሃገሬ ምን አደረኩላት?" ሳይሆን "ሃገሬ ለእኔ ምን አደረገችልኝ?" ማለት መልመድ ነው ያለብን። 🚶🏻

🚶🏻