Minerva

Being loved by the right person feels like touching the edge of eternity.

And The victim who turns their wound into an identity no longer seeks justice, but a new executioner. They do not fear evil as much as they fear its disappearance, because the absence of the executioner would bring down the stage upon which their innocence performs. when the wound begins to heal, they reopen it, and when the guilt disappears, they create one. For innocence that has no one to condemn soon loses its meaning; a virtue that exists only in contrast to vice is not virtue at all, but a hidden desire for the existence of evil.

No one needs an executioner more than the person who has made being a victim their identity. They do not live by their suffering alone, but by the need to blame someone for it. If the devil disappears, they will invent one, because innocence feels incomplete without someone to condemn. Those who cling most tightly to their own innocence often cannot live without finding guilt in someone else. And when they lose their executioner, they simply create a new one.

You can't think decently if you're not willing to hurt yourself.

«Man is the creature who does not know what to desire, and he turns to others in order to make up his mind. We desire what others desire because we imitate their desires.»

«Only those moments count, when the desire to remain by yourself is so powerful that you'd prefer to blow your brains out than exchange a word with someone.»

«Longing for Death Down into the womb of the earth, Out of the kingdom of light, Anger, pain, and a savage blow Signal the happy departure.» - Novalis, Hymns to the Night

Modern people think that they have to act immediately. To know pathos is not an action. It is to see things, to know, in other words, to recognise. Modern people have forgotten that truly knowing things is a power.

A mature decision carries within it the courage of its own consequences. Once a choice is made, one either inhabits it fully or revises it openly. To leave while continuously seeking symbolic forms of return is to suspend oneself between affirmation and negation. The result is not freedom, but incoherence. In Hegelian terms, such a person remains trapped in contradiction. They negate the relationship through their departure, yet refuse to negate it completely in practice. Their action and their will fail to achieve unity. What was presented as a decisive act reveals itself as an empty abstraction, lacking the seriousness required for genuine self-determination. This is why such departures often become difficult to take seriously. The decision ceases to appear as an authentic expression of autonomy and begins to resemble a performance, one that seeks the appearance of independence without accepting the reality of separation.

Dependence is necessarily a loss of superiority.

«To take without being taken, sole acceptable formula for relations between the superior man and woman.» - Henry de Montherlant.

I know it’s tasty! but unfortunately There is also a deeper disappointment. Revenge rarely delivers what it promises. It can punish the offender, but it cannot undo the original wound, recover lost time, or restore innocence. When the anticipated satisfaction fails to arrive, we are left not only with the old hurt but also with the awareness that we compromised ourselves in pursuit of relief. Yes, revenge may grant power for a moment, but at the cost of self-respect sometimes. The true victory we imagined was freedom from the offender; revenge often reveals that we were still psychologically dependent on them all along. The person we sought to master continued, in a hidden way, to govern us. That realization can feel like a form of inferiority.

«Revenge is not always sweet, once it is consummated we feel inferior to our victim.»

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«Wait for and prepare the event. It will not be difficult for you to return the herd to obedience. The men of the people will forever remain slaves, because there is in them the innate need to reach out towards chains. Remember that the soul of the crowd knows only panic.» - Gabriele D'Annunzio

‘‘Admittedly; but remember Machiavelli, according to whom it were better to be impetuous than circumspect, because Nature is a woman to be mastered only by him who goes to her whip in hand. Experience shows, the same authority continues, that she far more readily grants her favors to ferocious suitors than to diffident.” - Marquis de Sade

«The greater a man is, the more he exposes himself to being wounded; tranquility is for the mediocre, whose heads disappear into the crowd.»

"Only mystery enables us to live. Only mystery." Federico García Lorca, Play and Theory of the Duende.

“It is an act of intellectual stupidity to seek to replace a social order that has taken shape over centuries and is fortified by tradition.” -Oswald Spengler

«Tedium, yes, is boredom with the world, the nagging discomfort of living, the weariness of having lived; tedium is indeed the carnal sensation of endless emptiness of things. But tedium, even more than all that, is a boredom with other worlds, whether real or imaginary; the discomfort of having to keep living, albeit as someone else in some other way, in some other world; weariness not only of yesterday and today but also of tomorrow and of eternity, if such exists, or of nothingness, if that's what eternity is. It's not only the emptiness of things and living beings that troubles the soul afflicted by tedium, it's also the emptiness of the very soul that feels this vacuum, that feels itself to be this vacuum, and that within this vacuum is nauseated and repelled by its own self.»